The only one thing you know about me was my name. Today is Monday, November 23, 2009

Shopaholic.

Nov20

20/11/09, Friday at 2:28am.
"I wanna be with you now dear." - Z.A

Last night, my girlfriend sent me a link for online shopping. Supposedly, i had to help her choose in between two kinds of shoes. One with lace and the other one's a buckle. I ended up getting myself two and she made her own decision in the end. So she has chosed the buckle one's and thats it for her. Me on the other hand, was tremendously crazy over em pictures, how they looked like and especially they're the kind ive been searching like fuck, which is, actually there is, but X. Too X for that so i gave up getting one. Until last night, thanks to my girlfriend, i only have to forked 118$ for two platform wedges. You dont know how contented i am. I dont know why, but the thing is about me, i preferred spurging on hundrenths or a thousand on a bag. Crazy, i know, but awesome :) I realized, i'd already got myself 3 shoes last month and now i got myself another two pairs. Always buy something that is cheap yet look expensive. Affordable, worth and comfortable. Very important. But puhlease, do not make yourself look stupid with "branded" goods. The word 'fake' will be plastered all over you. Shame shame.

I had customers in between aged of thirteen to sixteen, coming in my store and acted "Miss Know It All". They were searching for a make-up palette. Well, anything about make-up, but in a way of bringing up other brands such as Chanel, Dior etc.

A: What are you looking for? Blusher?
B: I dont know. But i bet Chanel is better.
A: You didnt even use or try it before. You only said that because its a 'brand'.
B: DUH! Dior isn't so bad too you know *walking out*

And if you happen to come across such friend as this, especially when they're still schooling and all they carries in their purse was less than 50$, tell them to forget about it. Much less, they're not working, so don't talk much. Ive witnessed this thing so many times, they would asked me several questions, showing a scent of buying but actually no, they looked very macam paham. And since you read this, and wondering why am i even posting this thing, is because ive encountered another one yesterday at work. Like Tyra Banks mentioned, "Girls these days grow up too fast, they actually didn't know whats in store for them".

Love for breakfast on Thursday morning, 'Paranormal Activity' came after, ION and Scotts was last. I always have a good day with this man. I dont know how to get angry or sad when i am around him. You know i love you too, i cannot wait to see you again. Work at four and everything else runs a little low. I think i could count how many customers walked in to the store. Sales on Wednesday was better. Work like fuck, but that didn't mean i forget you, you or you :) I am waiting for my girlfriend now. It is turning three am in half and hour time, its a sleepover than. Friday comes today and seriously its not 'Thank god its Friday' for me at all. Soon you'll know. Oh wells, ciaolo better comes now. I miss love already.

This baby's birthday is coming soon. I cannot wait.
I love her so much and i miss her craziness.
I need to go get a drink and her right beside me soon!

Right, i miss my girlfriends so much that i just got to upload these up.
Meet soon babies.

<3


Humour.

Nov18

18/11/09, Wednesday at 2:39am.
"Something bad is in the air..." - Z.A

Hey, its me again. So stoned. Need glasses of liqour, watch sunset and drown.
Bombing on January, cannot wait ccb.
Bed is calling now, work nanti ohmygod.
*waves*


Drama.

Nov18

18/11/09, Wednesday at 1:32am.
"I love you, I can't wait to see you, you give me sanity." - Z.A

Ex-boyfriend, you know it has never been about your tattoo. Even so that my father has an issue of that, you still do know that it didn't matter to me. Don't go around telling people i do, because it is not true. If you say a tattoo that has broke us up, that is nonsense. You know the real reason so stop making up stories. You two, i dont understand you two. If you're in love, just let it be shooting star. Girl, if you needed help, i am here but i am not here to spoil your relationship with him. I am just saving your ass. If you asked me a question, which the answer is simply in your heart, don't ask. I am not you. I don't live in your shoes now. Boy, if there's any mistakes i'd made, i would like to apologise. I know my name is everywhere. I know you cannot live your life with my name scattered about. I guess you just have to endure with these. High fever, you're always sick. Take good care of yourself. You may got yourself somebody new, but please do not get me involve. Triangular never been in my dictionary. Girl, if you think you're in help of this triangle love, you're wrong. There's never been. Because i am not in his picture anymore the moment he got to know you. Though he might had said to me that you both are only friends, i really don't care anymore. Don't text me to say, "He's all yours now". That's very unreasonable. I cannot believe what happened on Monday night. I felt like i am the middle person to med your relationship with him, which is, very stupid. Really very stupid. If you're telling me you're tired of this shit, what am i then? I may have said many bad things, i may have said many wrong things, i dont know, even so it is true or facts, it is still your life. I am seriously walking away from him. Had already did that long ago. Now, the decision lies in you two. Do not count me in. This is stupid. I am not gonna be a girl who med her ex-boyfriend's life with his new "love". What bullshit is that? After so long, i still got that tone from him. What am i to you? Is it so hard to talk to me nicely? -_-"

I was in the bus on my way home from work just now. I felt sad all of a sudden. I dont know why but i want to cry. Tiredness from work is already bad enough, what else is there? I really need to be far away from you people. I had work so hard for one thing, nobody is gonna stop me. January, please come fast. I had decided, i'll make it work. I cannot wait for Thursday. I am gonna make use of my morning and afternoon with love before i head for work. I miss my man. Competition is in three days. I just felt an axe to my neck. And oh my god, i still cannot believe what happened on Monday night. Stupid.

And girl, if you dont want to call yourself a copycat, dont copy and paste my qoute over at your page.
Its not original, really :)

<3


So fly.

Nov13

13/11/09, Friday at 1:28am.

Mapping with each, was so deep, warm like starting campfire, collide in ways, gummy bleeded, hard kisses and miss you already.
And baby, i finished my food this time. I love you.

<3


Full-stop.

Nov12


12/11/09, Thursday at 12:23am.
"You know what, I can't wait to see you. I miss every damn thing about you baby." - Z.A

I got so many things going on. Every wonderful things to share with. Just some. Love bailed on KL so i get to see him two days in a row, which that makes yesterday and today. I feel so grateful. Breakfast was so hilarious. Last weekend was very intense. I don't even have time to go take a look at myself in the mirror. Was like a paparazzi, i wouldn't want to miss a shot. Kakak is gorgeous. Beautifully gorgeous on her wedding day. I cannot believe she's already somebody's wife. I am so proud of her. I cried for a few times. Like all the memories were reminising. She's on her honeymoon now in Bali. Now that reminds me of mine this coming January. I am still praying, i'll make it. Work and dance will be another reason why i am so occupied. Time is running out too, i noticed i'm left with a week to complete the dance. December will be coming after and the schedule will be fucktably tight. Talk about christmas. Many oh my god please. Love's here now, got to go.

Love like this.

Its so hard to choose the best photo because every shot was taken beautifully.
Its best for you to go dig the pictures on my facebook :)
Everything about it was so romantic, happily ever after.

And even how corky this man can turned to be, you know i love you so much.

You see the clocks everywhere, its not ticking cause we put a hold on each one.
See you later love.

<3


A little seek.

Shazlyn Shaffiee Mustone.
I may be a stranger to you but i know you love me. I do sin to get myself save.
20 and im fly.
Life's a chaos but i am still alive and kickin'.
Live, love, learn, lie and laugh.
Come find me, you know where i'll be at.
<3 Z.A.